Oct 2, 2015

Getting close to cheetah 'woman'

My amazing cheetah girl is 14. That's getting closer to cheetah 'woman' than cheetah 'girl'--and I'm none too happy about it.

Jenna,
At 14, you are still so much a little girl. And I love you for this! I want you to continue to live as a child as long as you can--because before you know it, you will be an adult. And you'll have to....adult. And...bleh.

So, play your music, draw all day, write songs, sing loudly, and enjoy it.

I love you more than my heart can hold. I love when you wake up, and quietly come up behind me
and just rest your head full of messy curls on my shoulder. I love that, even though you're as tall as me, you still want me to hug you as if you're a tiny girl--and i will gladly do that for the rest of my life. I love how you lean into me, and just 'noodle' so I will hold you tighter.

Here's a secret--you know how I always get on you to brush your hair, make sure there's no mascara under your eyes, and ensure you don't look like a homeless drifter? Yeah, THAT conversation. I actually love that you don't care; that you think it's incredulous that anyone would judge you for not brushing your hair, or for wearing a wrinkly shirt.
There are so many moments where I want to burst with pride. You, working at the zoo; your conversations with conservation leaders at CCF meetings--and when you shaved the side of your head (I know, weird). But right after we had the side-shave done, I said, "I just want you to be prepared that some people may look at you weird or judge you."
"Why?" you asked.
"Because that's a very 'risky' haircut."
"Why? It's just hair."
"True, but many people will assume you're a certain kind of person because of your hair."
"Why? That's stupid."

And my heart was full, and to be honest, I gave myself a little pat on the back for that one. Because, girl, you are the LEAST judgmental person i've ever met in my life. You fully grasp that looks don't make a person, nor do they define a person. I LOVE THAT. If more people had your heart, the world would be a better place.

You made me a mommy. You created a part of my heart that I didn't have before. You showed me a way of loving that I didn't know existed. How much do I love you? All the spots. All the spots, on all the cheetahs, and all the spots in the world.

You are my baby, and you always will be.



All the spots,
Mommy
xoxoxox

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Unknown said...

Gosh, girl, you're stunning.
May I see you in Seventh-Heaven
or do I gotta pass?

I totally know whats on
97.79% of people's minds:

Sex aint allowed on earth
unless you're married;
if you continue to fornicate,
you maaay risk Hellfire
through YOUR, OWN, CHOICE!!!

However...
In Seventh-Heaven, have at it.
Almighty God saith unto thee:
LEAVE A FEW GALAXIES4OTHERS.

Make Your Choice -SAW

PS...
'the more you shall honor Me,
the more I shall bless you'
-the Infant Jesus of Prague

Unknown said...

...I love your attitude, too.
Never lose it.
It'll help you
on your journey Upstairs, dear.

Meet me at my RongWay Cafe
in the Great Beyond.
Let's gitta BIG-OL-BEER.
Gotta lotta tok about
describing our love, love, love
of the non-lemmings
(which is you).
Cya soon...